It's been so very long
Since I have felt this way inside
Since that old familiar feeling's
Warms this weary heart of mine

At first I didn't recognize
Just what was going on
So imagine how surprised I was
When realization dawned

My heart is so delighted
It's been let out of its cell
But my mind is whispering softly
This might not work out so well

It's so hard to explain to you
What's going on inside
All the hidden fears
And the emotions that I hide

Whene're I look into your eyes
My heart begins to melt
While my mind is struggling fiercely
With the hand it has been dealt

Why must I always fall for one
I know cannot be mine
Why is it that I feel
That I'm committing some great crime

So here I find myself again
Upon the battlefield
Struggling between
The way I think and what I feel

Whenever you're around me
My heart is filled with bliss
Reminding me of all
The tender love that I have missed

And still my mind is saying
That, with you, I don't belong
You already have a boyfriend
And my heart should run along

 

For: Heather
October, 1990